piss off

I’m actually really hungry but I physically can’t eat I get sick but I’m going to...

Tue, 14 May 2013 15:37:40 -0400

I’m actually really hungry but I physically can’t eat I get sick but I’m going to make myself tomorrow until I can keep something down I’m already running on fumes

• I made this post the other day but I miss skyping with people especially people I’m close...

Tue, 14 May 2013 15:33:21 -0400

• I made this post the other day but I miss skyping with people especially people I’m close with a skyped a couple times last week and they were rad
• I’ve been wanting to hang out with my friends here more than ever lately
• I’ve eaten one small thing in the last three days and I’ve barely slept for the same amount of nights and i dont know if ill sleep tonight even though I’ve taken 4 tablets that are suppose to have drowsy side effects all because of sick
• I want attention for the first time in a long time
• I miss playing games and doing things with the people I did them with

i’ve been on the brink of crying for over 30 minutes nearly 40 minutes i hate this i hate this...

Mon, 22 Apr 2013 11:55:00 -0400

i’ve been on the brink of crying for over 30 minutes nearly 40 minutes i hate this i hate this stupid depression and i hate these fucking mood destroying med side effects i just want to go to sleep and not wake up haha

how my dad reacted to finding out i have depression worried supportive called me up again today to...

Sun, 21 Apr 2013 11:47:53 -0400

how my dad reacted to finding out i have depression

worried
supportive
called me up again today to see how i was doing

how my mum reacted to finding out i have depression

“yeah right that’s bullshit”
“the doctor is a fucking idiot”
“just get out of the house and get a fucking life”
“you better go to college tomorrow” even though she saw the doctor’s certificate saying that the side effects from my medicine might stop me from going

i called my dad because i just wanted to talk to him about things and i ended up talking to him...

Wed, 17 Apr 2013 09:45:00 -0400

i called my dad because i just wanted to talk to him about things and i ended up talking to him about how i’ve been feeling really down and lethargic lately and my headaches and how fucked up my sleeping’s been and he thought it was all related to how i’ve been sleeping lately but then i ended up talking about i havent been talking to anyone the last few days because of it all and how i feel about everything else and i was finding it harder to talk to him jsut beause it was getting hard to actually talk like physically talk and he think i might have depression. he’s always right about these things to the point where i havent taken medicine in years apart from painkillers for really bad headaches because what he tells me to do works.

great. i guess i’ll find out if he’s right on friday.

i’m pretty sure i’ve messed things up with nicolle because regardless of the state im in...

Wed, 17 Apr 2013 01:24:00 -0400

i’m pretty sure i’ve messed things up with nicolle because regardless of the state im in all i care about is myself and i’m scared that elise might not want to talk to me anymore or for a long while depending on how my doctor’s visit goes and i haha really don’t want either of those to be true but i can’t see them being false

i don’t think i can handle more or less losing two really close friends right now.

it’s hard going against myself even if it’s for my own wellbeing

Sun, 14 Apr 2013 21:22:45 -0400

it’s hard going against myself even if it’s for my own wellbeing

i dont want deal with this. i’ve had enough. i’m sick of it.

Sun, 14 Apr 2013 13:34:56 -0400

i dont want deal with this. i’ve had enough. i’m sick of it.

i’m sad but oh well.

Sat, 13 Apr 2013 21:23:00 -0400

i’m sad but oh well.

i’m keeping a lot of stuff buried right now wow

Wed, 10 Apr 2013 22:33:45 -0400

i’m keeping a lot of stuff buried right now wow

it hurt to be told i always want to talk all the time everyday in a really annoyed way by the person...

Sun, 31 Mar 2013 13:27:57 -0400

it hurt to be told i always want to talk all the time everyday in a really annoyed way by the person i’m used to talking to the most even though we havent talked properly in days and not at all in the last two

i cant let this happen

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 21:47:52 -0400

i cant let this happen

of course not

Tue, 26 Mar 2013 08:41:58 -0400

of course not

londie replied to your post: londie replied to your post: londie replied to… and full of...

Mon, 25 Mar 2013 00:07:48 -0400

londie replied to your post: londie replied to your post: londie replied to…

and full of delicious bread

yeah but i’d still be alive >:(

londie replied to your post: londie replied to your post: kill me no i’ll give… i will give...

Mon, 25 Mar 2013 00:01:15 -0400

londie replied to your post: londie replied to your post: kill me no i’ll give…

i will give you vegan banana bread to stay alive and not be dead

but then i’ll be alive

londie replied to your post: kill me no i’ll give you 50$ and my collection of mario themed...

Sun, 24 Mar 2013 23:51:01 -0400

londie replied to your post: kill me

no

i’ll give you 50$ and my collection of mario themed games on n64

kill me

Sun, 24 Mar 2013 23:44:51 -0400

kill me

I don’t see much point in things right now & I’m gonna not mention the thing...

Fri, 15 Mar 2013 20:36:00 -0400

I don’t see much point in things right now & I’m gonna not mention the thing that’s got me in a haze lately whenever I bring it up to people they never reply and lmao I get the picture. Good morning to me.

maybe instead of chasing my wants i should take my foot off the pedal for a while and see if...

Sun, 03 Mar 2013 20:42:36 -0500

maybe instead of chasing my wants i should take my foot off the pedal for a while and see if anything comes to me

lately none of my wants have felt reachable, for the last few weeks it’s felt like my wants...

Sun, 03 Mar 2013 19:15:29 -0500

lately none of my wants have felt reachable, for the last few weeks it’s felt like my wants are pieces of paper that I’m trying to catch on a really windy day and whenever I get close to them the wind just picks up and makes them fly away and sometimes it feels like I don’t know what I want anymore and I’m sick of it I just want to be able to grasp a couple things at least so I know what I want and have what I want so I have the drive to keep chasing the rest.