May 2013
2 posts
I’m actually really hungry but I physically can’t eat I get sick but I’m going to make myself tomorrow until I can keep something down I’m already running on fumes
• I made this post the other day but I miss skyping with people especially people I’m close with a skyped a couple times last week and they were rad
• I’ve been wanting to hang out with my friends here more than ever lately
• I’ve eaten one small thing in the last three days and I’ve barely slept for the same amount of nights and i dont know if ill sleep tonight even...
April 2013
8 posts
i’ve been on the brink of crying for over 30 minutes nearly 40 minutes i hate this i hate this stupid depression and i hate these fucking mood destroying med side effects i just want to go to sleep and not wake up haha
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how my dad reacted to finding out i have depression
worried
supportive
called me up again today to see how i was doing
how my mum reacted to finding out i have depression
“yeah right that’s bullshit”
“the doctor is a fucking idiot”
“just get out of the house and get a fucking life”
“you better go to college tomorrow” even though she saw...
i called my dad because i just wanted to talk to him about things and i ended up talking to him about how i’ve been feeling really down and lethargic lately and my headaches and how fucked up my sleeping’s been and he thought it was all related to how i’ve been sleeping lately but then i ended up talking about i havent been talking to anyone the last few days because of it all...
i’m pretty sure i’ve messed things up with nicolle because regardless of the state im in all i care about is myself and i’m scared that elise might not want to talk to me anymore or for a long while depending on how my doctor’s visit goes and i haha really don’t want either of those to be true but i can’t see them being false
i don’t think i can handle...
it’s hard going against myself even if it’s for my own wellbeing
i dont want deal with this. i’ve had enough. i’m sick of it.
i’m sad but oh well.
i’m keeping a lot of stuff buried right now wow
March 2013
11 posts
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it hurt to be told i always want to talk all the time everyday in a really annoyed way by the person i’m used to talking to the most even though we havent talked properly in days and not at all in the last two
i cant let this happen
of course not
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londie replied to your post: londie replied to your post: londie replied to…
and full of delicious bread
yeah but i’d still be alive >:(
londie replied to your post: londie replied to your post: kill me no i’ll give…
i will give you vegan banana bread to stay alive and not be dead
but then i’ll be alive
londie replied to your post: kill me
no
i’ll give you 50$ and my collection of mario themed games on n64
kill me
I don’t see much point in things right now & I’m gonna not mention the thing that’s got me in a haze lately whenever I bring it up to people they never reply and lmao I get the picture. Good morning to me.
maybe instead of chasing my wants i should take my foot off the pedal for a while and see if anything comes to me
lately none of my wants have felt reachable, for the last few weeks it’s felt like my wants are pieces of paper that I’m trying to catch on a really windy day and whenever I get close to them the wind just picks up and makes them fly away and sometimes it feels like I don’t know what I want anymore and I’m sick of it I just want to be able to grasp a couple things at least...
bleh
February 2013
6 posts
“you actually gave me shit”
i;m actually really upset that you think that.
sigh.
i’m glad i slept through my alarms this morning
i??? really don’t like when people give me a reason for not doing something with me but then end up doing something completely different to/that conflicts with the reason or excuse they gave me
it’s one of my biggest pet peeves and i just hate when it happens regardless of how small or petty a thing it is???
i don’t think it’s a bad trait in general because it’s...
good to know i’m not attractive enough.
[[MORE]]that’s the first time i’ve had second thoughts
maybe i should wait.
January 2013
15 posts
i’m pretty sure i don’t have any friends on here anymore
lmao
that being said ignoring things is hard and i really don’t want to ignore it anyway so i’ll just deal with it or whatever sigh
[[MORE]]i mean you say not to worry and i wouldn’t say i’m “worried” exactly but still at the same time sometimes it’s like ???????
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i don’t know whatever
feelings are stupid sometimes
damn
i’ve posted on this blog like 4 times in 2 days not counting this that’s a goddamn record
[[MORE]]god being lumped in with ben right now even in the slightest way considering everything suuuuuuuucks
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i’m a little sad i thought things were going well
well i thought things were looking better for me as selfish as that may be
and even though i’m not holding onto any false hope or anything at all
it’s made me happy?
but now this thing with ben just seems to have made things take a step in a direction i didn’t want, well, it’s been like that for a bit but...
today was a really cute day and i was really happy with it until now and i’ve got nobody but myself to blame for it and thats the worst thing about it
sigh
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I can’t believe how stupid I feel for being annoyed like seriously
all i feel is regret
i just ate my first vegan dinner like home cooked meal instead of like a salad or sandwich and it was bloody beautiful
oh yeah by the way i’ve had a vegan diet since the 1st and now that i’ve got my lifestyle products i’ll be completely vegan as of well, earlier today
i havent said anything on my blog and probably won’t until i’m completely comfortable with saying...
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cindry replied to your post: for some reason ben’s jojo’s photosets annoy me…
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hey are you online right now?
or just available?
for some reason ben’s jojo’s photosets annoy me and I don’t know why even the one I reblogged annoys me
December 2012
8 posts
what a cheap shitty line i can’t believe i would even think about saying something like that
feeling shut out sucks man
go away
ah
i get it now
i never had a chance
siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh
of course
even if i want to it’s not my place to say anything
as much as i like ratty sometimes her attitude is completely unbearable especially when she admits to manhating its just annoying
